I'd say I have a good heart but I can't help but wish you the worst, if not, at least I hope you have it really really bad.
I am not an easily likable person. I am envious of those who could get along with people they just met. I am horrible at making conversation. Most of the time I keep to myself and yes, I am very quiet. I am really very awkward. I hate it when people ask me why I'm quiet, I mean I don't ask them why they never shut up and I don't tell them when I really just don't give a fuck.
Sometimes I wish I were loud and funny and witty and adorable like most people but I am not. I wish I were the life of the party but I am not. I wish I was a person who could make you feel at ease immediately and not bore you to death or deafen you with my silence.
And I would like to confess that I think I relate more with 9GAG posts than I do with people in general.
Oh look how much I have changed since high school!
xoxo
Awkward
Will definitely purchase tickets in advance no matter how much it will cost. :)
I love Peeta <3 That is all :)
First four photos are off the web, I do not own them
Dream Girl þ
Seat þ
Glide þ
Not sure what you call this but this is my next goal o
I can't find a picture of the one they do in class but it's basically like this but you don't start from an invert and you're holding your outer leg with your hand. Hopefully after 3 or 4 sessions I can get this done.
In the meantime:
I'm too shy to ask for my picture taken in class, I probably will when I attain my goal. I'm thinking of posting street pole though :p I'll think about it. :)
Occasionally, I feel like such a loner. It's just one of those days. I hate it.
left wrist after class, the scratch got swollen and it just looks funny
left wrist the day after
less scratches on my right wrist! :D
So I think I've graduated from leg wounds and bruises, moved on to wrist and arm wounds.
I just want to say how much I love pole dance. It's really having the effect I want on my body. I just basically feel much stronger. My arms feel better and I feel like it's doing wonders for my abdomen and bum (or that could be wishful thinking) :p
It's really good because every meeting, our teachers push our limits. So every meeting, I can do something new. And the feeling of accomplishment is just amazing. Also I realized I'm the youngest in class. Most of my classmates are like 25-30+ and some already have kids. They often tell me that it's great that I started young and that once you get older, it gets harder for your body and all. And when you're younger you can learn things faster. Okay I admit I do enjoy getting compliments like being a fast learner, or being a professional pole dancer (or so my elder Chinese classmate tells me). Haha. Point is, I love the encouragement I get from my teachers and classmates. The whole class environment feels really nice and home-y and just really really fun. For someone who isn't a very sociable person (especially in school) like me, pole class does a lot for your confidence.
" I think Mockingjay had to be tragic and it had to leave scars. Suzanne Collins said from the beginning she wanted to be real about war and the aftermath... especially when talking to children. "
I love how Katniss realized that Gale was never what she really needed. I think people suffer a great deal from not realizing this in their own similar situations.
I loved falling in love with Peeta even though I was Team Gale at the beginning of the first book (shush!). I love Peeta for the same reason I love Stefan. " I kept thinking that Katniss was struggling to hold their friendship together because it was one of the few things she had left, even when it was clear to her that they were moving in opposite directions."
I love how Collins killed off Prim - adorable Prim. I don't think anyone thought she would die. Her character was built up very subtly but effectively, making us fall in love with her only to have Collins break our hearts into a million little pieces. She made a great point in taking her away.
One of my biggest heartbreaks in the series was when Finnick died. He had one of the nicest subplots and he was such an interesting character. And gawd, Annie. Poor Annie.
I love how I first read Hunger Games and didn't think of it at all as a love story. I love how realistic the whole thing was and had to shudder at how close we are to getting there. I love how Collins seems to take a jab at reality shows *cough* Big Brother *cough*. I love the tragedy of an ending Mockingjay was. Suzanne Collins gave us no closure at all to convey her message.
I love how even though Katniss and Peeta ended up together, they were left broken. And I love how you can turn that around: "That even after all the crap they've been put through, they at least found some semblance of happiness amidst their broken selves."
If you read the books and did not feel that punch in your face, I'm sorry for you.
I had my 2nd class at Polecats yesterday. I got to work on my arms with the lifts they made us do. This session we did a few lifts to strengthen our arms and abdomen area. My arms are pretty sore today.
I was also able to do more fancy spins, I haven't gotten the hang of all of them but I'll get there. I got my arms bruised from gripping too tightly. I've improved my dreamgirl pose and the basic spins if I do say so myself. The biggest challenge had to be the chair position where you don't climb up, you have to lift your body up, cross your legs into a sitting position then move your upper body in front of the pole. I think I pulled a muscle.. or vein and I hate it. I get all nauseous but I'm learning to control that now. The chair pose is a killer to your thighs. Getting up is not the problem, it's staying up that's quite a bitch. I have to work on my climbing. I need to reach the top of the pole. It just hurts so much with a wound on my foot. Oh well, really looking forward to my next session. I only have time to go once a week and it sucks. But I'm loving the effect of pole dancing on my body. I really need to keep at it to get killer abs like Teacher Kayleen, heh! :)
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